Hitched

So here's my question. How long does it take to feel married? It may be because we lived together before the wedding but everything still feels the same. I've heard that marriage changes everything...no..no it doesn't. Just my name. That's enough of a pain in my ass to be everything but it's not. It's been almost a month and I think I just said husband for the first time a couple days ago. Can I still call him my boyfriend? That'd probably be weird.

120 Days

I really don't want to get super specific here because I have no idea who reads this...

I'm understanding how one becomes a bridezilla and why people elope. I'm wishing I had taken about 10 people to the beach and was getting married there tomorrow. I'm done.

General message - this is mine and Dave's wedding and the choices are mine not yours.

Dave and I are considering moving to Palm Springs where his parents live and I'm trying really hard to find reasons to stay here. I'm not finding many. My parents and the amount of $ I make are about it. Not even my job, just the money. Not a way I like to feel about things.

Get this party started!

The wedding is 139 days away. I know this because I am on weddingchannel.com roughly 14 times a day reviewing my planning checklist. I swear I'm not a bridezilla, nor will I be. It's just OCD. Today I ordered invitations, my shoes, bridesmaids gifts, some favors, scouted out rings, and bullied my bridesmaids into ordering their shoes. This week, my mom and I will go check out cakes and then her next assignment is flowers. Once those two things are ordered I can take another couple months off. :)
I kinda wish it was closer. I'm the type of person who likes to get all my to-do's taken care of without waiting. It's driving me nuts that there's stuff I need to do, and I know I need to do it, but it's just not time to do it yet. Don't be surprised if invitations go out in May.....

Masochist

Sunday I got what is to be my final tattoo. I love it. However, in the process of getting it, the phrase "too old for this shit" came to mind. It didn't help that the guy doing it had a pretty heavy hand and it was the most painful one I've ever gotten. It's also interfered with my life. I haven't been able to work out all week because of the discomfort.
I don't find tattoos immature or something professional people shouldn't have. I do kind of think there's a stage of life you can get them in though. That's different ages for everybody and can sometimes happen more than once or twice in a lifetime but I don't think I'm at that stage now and I sort of hope I'm never at that stage again.

New Year

Holy Crap it's 2011! How'd that happen? Whatever. This year is going to be fantastic. I turn 31 this year, in a little over a month. We're going to Palm Springs to visit the boys parents right after. And in August we're getting MARRIED! Honestly, a couple years ago I really didn't think I would ever get married. I never thought I'd find someone who made me happy again. The truth is though, he doesn't just make me happy, he shows me how unhappy I was before. I think this will be the year I finally start really living instead of going through the motions. I think I've already started some.

Here's to the BEST YEAR EVER!!!